Your journey is the journal. Don’t think it has to be with a notebook, pen or paper. You are the connection to the journal of the journey. Staying connected is always on.
Monthly Archives: February 2022
Throughout my day, I check in with myself. I realize it doesn’t take much to check my temperature. Being consistent is of interest these days(laughter). Time is consistent. Seasons are consistent. Daylight is consistent. Night time is consistent. As for me? Here we go!
Self check my mental
Self check my emotions
Self check my physical
Self check my vibrations
Self check the proper rest I need
Self check when it’s time to turn everything off. With a little support, I have friendly reminders in place
I can remember the thoughts of being consistent would exhaust me. More so, being consistent is apart of my lifestyle, and to taking better care of myself. Consistent is not being perfect or on a schedule all the time, for me personally, it’s getting to know more about oneself and the betterment of connecting with others. Self love, self care, self awareness and self appreciation are amazing attributes and investments to self and to others.
Knowing all the versions of yourself
When you are in a place where you are always placing yourself being last to be served, there it will for certain tell you, you are in need of giving yourself more attention. There seem to always be a sense of acceptance and validation of others, when in fact you haven’t taken the time to receive your own self love. Knowing more of yourself means you need to care more about your well being. Learn and engage in your higher self and your lower self. Theirs always improvement for your growth. Be specific in an area that’s an DIS-Ease in your life. You sometime may feel like you’re not getting anywhere, but you are. I can relate by realizing I was only cutting at the surface and not getting to the root of the source of my challenges. I use to believe there was no “How to” until I began to discover more about myself. From there; self love, self support and self guidance began to make it’s presence. I was exhausted from creating everyone around me comfortable when in fact I was uncomfortable. In order for me to realize that, I had to fall with nothing attached to me. A real and genuine love sprinkled life back into me. It was like a plant without water, with suddenly this sprinkle into a pour hitting the roots and rising to the top of the plant. I felt so alive again, refresh, a new beginning with only me in the story. From there the KNOWING began to elevate me and evolving me in ways I never imagine nor experience.
Enclosing, just when you think you know everything about you, happily to say, you haven’t. It’s a whole newness of yourself that’s ready to rise up. Don’t give up on loving everything about yourself. Theirs a better version of yourself if you continue to read the other chapters of your life.
Forgive to Love again
Many break up’s to make up became normal. Not realizing that’s what I use to see and know as being normal. I made excuses for my behavior and others behavior. The tug and pull back and forth became old and tiring. I decided for change and to make it happen(clueless). I would wait looking for signs, and it never came.
Awaken one early morning, my soul was crying. I realize the breakup begin with a reminder how I left me, stranded and abandoned. I learned how to give to others and putting what I needed last. I had to develop a relationship with myself. I was a stranger to myself. I had to stop my soul from crying. I begin to apologize for all that I took myself through not with words alone, but with action. Spending quiet time, reading and writing were things that brought me joy and happiness. It was something that I yearned for. I begin to break away from toxic behaviors. Setting boundaries, and limiting how much time giving to others. Loving and giving to myself is something I look forward to. I would turn off my phone, cut off social media and spend that time with myself.
I discovered how to love me first. I discovered new versions of myself. Continually, with no strain or struggles I connect daily with myself. I realize the break up to make up begin with me. Healing and forgiving myself. It’s tough letting go of people that are not healthy for your well being, yet it was necessary.
Often time I was blindsided by false love an lies in your mind, emotions and feelings. My judgement was a bit clouded at times.
Sidebar advise: Take the time to heal. You are the source of the problem, not the other person(s). Everything begins with you and finish with you. We have the free will to make our own decisions. You have to decide when its time for change. It’s not up to the other person(s). Don’t worry how it suppose to look or happen, just speak it, and when you least expect change it’s already done. Forgive to love again.