From childhood, teenager, and now an adult this picture reminds me of the bubbles I lived in; not fully living in my full essence. I lived through my silence and not enter-standing and my authentic self. These bubbles carried peoples opinions, and how my life should be. Soon realizing these bubbles confined my thoughts, emotions, and choices. Just as the photo display a person, lions & lioness. Is the person the controller or the animals? Are the animals angry because they have no more control over that person? Have that person stop living in fear? Are these emotions now controlled in that person favor? I say bubbles, the photo shows animals and one person.
My creativity was dismiss and ignored. At times my vibrations was low. I begin to unlearn much that was taught to me growing up. I developed a new start and releasing the old. I begin to pop one bubble at a time. I felt different, yet lighter and free. I realize my true emotions were controlled by others.
Pop, false thoughts about me were gone. Pop, no more doubt vanished. Pop, others opinions were their perspective, but not mines. Pop, silence no more, I have a voice. Pop, not your life, this is my life. Pop, the blindfolds are gone, thanks, but I can see my own way now. Pop, suppress feelings and emotions, I can manage myself. Enough damage have been done. Learning my own love languages(Like). Those bubbles were containments with no option, no growth. Knew it had to be more outside restriction and restraints(Pop).
I think back and realize there were separation in in my division. I was set apart from key components of myself. I knew being discouraged was not real. Walking away was best for me. I am loveable and a warrior. Destroying destructive behaviors that wasn’t mines, done. Pop, incapable, they say. No, capable, I say. The more I popped, the more I was free by others.
The love, beauty and passion for writing helps me grow. Meeting new people is freedom. When I begin to transform more into myself, I remain strong like a tree and bloom like flowers.
When you come to a place of what’s working for you, you are Free2BYou. Move away from suppression and achieve in greatness of yourself. Build your home filled with your own memories, stories, new adventures and your resting place. Continue to learn patience, and embrace your pace.
To be conditioned to think a certain type of way(s) I ask, are you free? Denying yourself, and live inside someone else’s bubbles, do you feel replenished? Rules and guidelines are functions of someone else bubbles, what’s your thoughts about that? You have great ideas, but you’ve been told, you don’t have enough education or skills, do you believe that?
We all have a multitude of gifts and talents, never stop loving what you do. Be inspired and inspire others. Chose to accept or not accept.
“We decide to control our emotions or be consumed by them”
Unknown writer of this quote. And powerful photo of many life lived and living stories.
When I look at this picture, I see only one hand reaching up. This reflection ignites my entire being for many levels.
1) Given so much to gain very little from others. When my cup ran empty, I had nothing to replenish back into myself. Nothing sad or regretful to say the least or more, just lessons learned and still learning.
2) boundaries was unheard of. “No way”, that meant, I would be selfish in helping others, and neglect myself with disappointments was ok “ I deal with my needs later. I had to start rehearsing and practicing say “no”.
3) Once I began to reflect on myself, all those hands I extending outwardly to everyone else began to shift towards me, inwardly and outwardly. I actually begin to see all these hands for the first time, which were always mines and always visual, and always there. I was blind to the fact that I am a servant to caring for oneself first. When I needed a lending hand(s), they were already taking, full, and reserved by others(my choice).
4) I begin to restore myself into myself. Those extended hand(s)out to others first were ending. I understood boundaries, self love, healing, spending time with myself, relationship with oneself, and so much more.
5) We sometimes have to lose ourselves to find ourselves. No fault finding, no regrets, only gratefullness. It was me, that I learned from pass lessons in a more loving way than angry way.
6) Take a minute to reflect in your own life, and question are you really taking care of yourself or are you’re not? And how can you make a difference in your space? You are responsible for you. You will always have you! Don’t take it for granted. Lata!
“It’s lonely in here. I had no idea how much I’ve been missed”
self forgiveness, says, “you came back and you still rise above”
“I can’t do this, with my head down
self encouragement says, “I believe in you. You got this! LET’S GO!!!RISING ABOVE!!!!”
“I fell down here. I see rejection, abandonment, ignoring my feelings and emotions. And right there, I started my a few projects that I really enjoy and now I see I didn’t finish them. Over there, I was angry. As I look further, I see my self esteem was low. And now, I understand, I care taking care of everyone except for myself”.
self awareness says, ” I see what you see, you rise above them all. Look how far you’ve traveled. Because you decided to walk your life journey, it was not promised it would be easy. When you allow yourself to time to reflect you realize so much that was missed. Not everything can be fixed, but at least now, you’ve given the time needed to recognize. You rise in your climb. HUGE accomplishment.
“I laugh out loud. shaking my head. I cry out loud, shaking my head because it feel so good to my soul. I can take my time now. I’ve have so much I covered, and much to conqueror. I believe I get it now!
self healing says, ” You are taking time with yourself. You are the map to every part of you. You have the solution. I support you. Trust yourself more. It’s so much fun learning and getting to know yourself. Relationship begins with you. Once you implement care to self, then others will not only see it, they will know it.”
Self love, self care is never too far away. The journey starts out complaining with low vibrations. Ha! Nonetheless, high vibration begin to speak repeatedly the same phrase. Mindset begin to change. Conversation shifted and increase higher. low vibration begin to fade away.
After overcoming the workout, the incline became a breeze. My internal and external were now on equal grounds. Pour inward and outward, deserving, and team work.
Take a look around and see how far you’ve come. When people attempt to down play you, or you’re not good enough, don’t except that. Hit REJECT+DELETE and “RISE ABOVE” you got this….take a look at the photo one more time….”You rise above”
Growing more into my voice, and that’s huge for me, personally speaking. Healing is constantly transforming in different languages, expression, motions, and sometime nothing at all.
I’ve learned something new about my self. More like a hidden treasure, my voice outwardly instead of inwardly. I use to get frustrated and have writers block, and suddenly, I would shut down for weeks, and sometimes months. For some ironic….hmmmm, not sure if I have a reason, just know, recording out what I wanted to say, was another outlet to express what I could not write out or type out at times. I had no more excuses to shut down. That door was closed, and I am appreciative of that.
Healing takes time just like pursuing what you desire in life. Still learning to be patient with myself and also gentle. If I miss a coma, punctuation, or even misspell, I don’t allow it to stop the flow. I keep going and keep writing and keep speaking. Grateful🦋
First to admit that changes are needed somewhere in my daily life. We as a whole need positive support in the growth and development with one exception don’t stop Being who You are , but to continue to “B who U R”. Being difficult is not a bad thing. Self care is taking care of YOU! And if that means hurting feelings, it’s not intentional, it’s just the way it has to be. You have a voice. You have the final choice through your voice. Be firm and love that you love yourself that much.
My favorite phrase when people feel that I’m difficult “Yes, I’m difficult, so now you know I’m not easy”! Love and keep loving who you are and continue to heal through challenges. Have no regrets😉